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Yes, this may seem odd, me asking this... But, I wanted to know what other people would say.

If you were to die, either now or anytime from now, how would you want to go? 

See, I'm not sure how I would want to. I cant say I'd want to die from cancer, because I see my family members that are going through it right now, it hurts... and well, there's a chance i could have it too. I'm showing a few signs of it, so, soon I'm getting screened. I wouldnt want to die of a heart attack. I heard from my grandma, who has had a double massive heart attack a few years ago, that they hurt. (well, duh, but i meant like really badly*)

I dont really know how i want to die. I know i want to be ready, because right now, i'm not ready to die. Im actually afraid.. I dont know why.. I never was afraid, but now, i am. There's been too many deaths in my family lately, and i.. I just cant handle all of it. I probably can, but it hurts too bad. 

But, what I want to know, is that If you were to die, how would you want to go?

Just reply back anytime, and I'll try to reply quickly.

Love Always and Forever,
Current Location: Home, in room, on computer
Current Mood: tiredBut.. cant sleep.
Current Music: In my Arms~Plumb
11 February 2008 @ 04:52 pm
What inspires you to create?
 What inspires me to create things... Is how I see different things... Strange I know.. But if I see something someone or others dont like, I make something out of it. Kinda of like abstract. I like different things. I like variety. You can create anything if you put your heart, mind, and soul in it. And there you go... You have the perfect piece of creativity. Even if it seems it isnt... Its Special in its own way.

Current Location: Home, Laptop
Current Mood: depressed*See other posts*
Current Music: I will Remember You~Sarah McLachlan
11 February 2008 @ 04:32 pm
 Today, as I was getting on my bus to go home from school at 2:30pm, the girl I sit with was saving our seat. I sat down, and she turned to face me. Her face was tear streaked, and she was crying. I asked her what was wrong. She told me Ashley.

Ashley is one of my friends. She's a 7th grader, and Im a 10th grader. She has had cancer since she was about 8 or 9 years old. It has been in remission several times, and she has lost her hair several times because of medical treatment.

As soon as I heard Ashley's name, my heart stopped. Literally. I knew then, that the cancer that she had gotten removed a few months ago, had came back. The girl I sit with, Janette, said she is refusing treatment this time around. She's refusing because it makes her so sick.

At that point, I started to cry. Ashley and I havent talked much, because she's rarely home, or shes visiting family. I started to cry, because I know she feels like she has nothing else to do but give up. She's giving up. 

My grandmother, has just finished her chemothereapy for Lymphoma cancer, and now, my 11 year old cousin has Lukemia. 

I wish that I could take their places, especially my cousins' and Ashley's. I wish that, because they have so much more to live for. They have school, friends and their not done growing up. Verses me being almost 16. Its not fair, and it isnt right.

I would like for whoever reads this, to put Ashley, and Cedrick in your prayers. They can use them. They need them to survive.

Current Location: Home, Laptop
Current Mood: depressedSad for my friend and cousin
Current Music: I will Remember You~Sarah McLachlan
11 February 2008 @ 04:27 pm
What is one of your favorite poems?
One of my favorite poems... is the one I recited for our talent show in 8th grade. The poem is the one that is shown at the Statue of Liberty in New York City, New York. It is titled "The New Colossus" by Emma Lazarus.  I liked the poem imediately, and thought I'd try to be creative. I dressed up as the Statue of Liberty... The dress, crown, torch.. and the tablet that says July 4th... And I stood in front of almost 400 people, reciting this.... 

The New Colossus

Not like the brazen giant of Greek fame,

With conquering limbs astride from land to land;

Here at our sea-washed, sunset gates shall stand

A mighty woman with a torch, whose flame

Is the imprisoned lightning, and her name

Mother of Exiles. From her beacon-hand

Glows world-wide welcome; her mild eyes command

The air-bridged harbor that twin cities frame.

"Keep ancient lands, your storied pomp!" cries she

With silent lips. "Give me your tired, your poor,

Your huddled masses yearning to breathe free,

The wretched refuse of your teeming shore.

Send these, the homeless, tempest-tost to me,

I lift my lamp beside the golden door!"

And, well, that is one of my favorite poems, cause it holds some history. I like history, and I'd like to continue building with history...


Current Location: Home, Laptop...
Current Mood: depressedSad for Friend with cancer....
Current Music: I will Remember you~Sarah McLachlan
10 February 2008 @ 05:12 pm

Check out some UPDATES!!! 

go to: www.freewebs.com/againstthestrike 

+Writer's Strike... SOON OVER?!

+William Petersen.... LEAVING SOON!!!??

These are VERY important! Please, go to the site, and check them out!

Current Location: Home, Laptop...
Current Mood: creativehehe
Current Music: Evanescence~ Missing
09 February 2008 @ 07:18 pm
 Battered, Bruised, Broken...Alive

A/N: I was reading another 'kidnapping' story on fanfiction.net, and it kinda gave me an inspiration... Its in its 10th chapter on fanfiction.net, and Im still trying to find time to type it up and post it... So, without much further procrasination, here is chapter 1!!! 

Summary: Who could do this to an innocent life? So young, frightened and…………..not alone? Two CSI’s are kidnapped while looking for another victim. Will they be saved?

Current Location: Laptop...
Current Mood: nerdyTalk nerdy to me....
Current Music: Be Be Your Love~ Racheal Yamagata
06 February 2008 @ 11:19 pm
 Hey Everyone! I have fixed this all up, after figuring out what the heck to do!

I'll be posting several things on my LJ soon, and well, I hope you come to find you like my site! 

I have several Fanfictions in the work, and well, I decided I would post them on here as soon as I figured out HOW to... and well, now i do!  yay!

So, in the next entry, I will!

But, in the meantime, go to my very very good friends' site, and if you want the Strike to End?? this is the one for you!


I will post tomorrow! hehe

Current Location: Home.. Laptop.. bed..
Current Mood: scaredafraid of someone....
Current Music: Sound of White~Missy Higgins
06 February 2008 @ 10:15 pm
What do you want to be when you "grow up?"
What I'd like to be when I grow up... Well, I thought about this a lot, made some decisions, changes in my ideas, and well, I've looked into all the information that I can right now, and I think Im set...

I originally didnt want to be a dential Hygenist. But, with some consideration on how the work is, setting your hours, the salary, and well, I could use the money to go back to college for my second career choice. My Uncle is an X-Ray tech at a hospital about 2 hours from here, and he says that I would be good in the dential field. Health field. You name it.. I had told him before that I wanted to try to join the police force, or become a Crime Scene Investigator and collect evidence at crime scenes, and all. Nope.. He discredited that...

After looking through information about the dential hygenist, I decided, Ok! I like this.

So, after High School.. Which is in 2 years, I will be going to our Community college for Dential Hygene/Hygenist... And after that, and working for a few years, I'm going to go back to school for my Criminal Justice degree.. Hopefully I could get a Masters or something high in the ranking with that.. ;)

Current Location: Home, Laptop!
Current Music: Good Enough~Evanescence
06 February 2008 @ 09:39 pm
What method do you use to prepare your coffee or tea?
Wow, never thought I'd answer a question like this. ;)

I drink Tea, and sometimes French Vanilla Cappacino*(If I have time.)* For my tea, I drink basically Lipton tea. I get my tea cup or my thermos, put the tea bag with 2-3 spoon fulls of sugar, and start up the coffee pot. I hop in the shower at 5:30am, and Im out by 5:45am-6:00am.

Ok, so, Im out of the shower, with a towel around me, and a towel around my head. I slip a robe on and my house slippers, since it gets cold in the evening, and stays chilly till late morning. I then, make my way over to the coffee pot, which has the hot water, ready for tea. I pour the water in the cup, get the spoon and stir it till its tea.

Then, Im ready to start the day!

Lol... So, yeah, thats a lot right? heh.. I DO have writer's block.. lol

Current Mood: lovedI feel like I'm glowing bright
Current Music: I am Ready for Love~India Arie
06 February 2008 @ 12:06 am

One of my NEW vids! My wonderful cousin has given me her Youtube account, so I use it!

Another NEW vid!
Current Location: home
Current Mood: sleepysleepy
Current Music: Tears and Rain~James Blunt